Kamu

Kamu,

kamu la.

yang kat sana,

yang comel, rupawan lagi menawan.

ya, kamulah siapa lagi.

tak percaya pula,

sudah, jangan kamu bertapi-tapi lagi.

kamulah orang itu.

tidak disangkal lagi.

kamu tahu siapa kamu bukan?

kamulah orang itu.

Untuk "kamu"

-r.i-

1 stick of cigar

Well a lot of story i heard bout this stick.
They said 1 cigar = -1 day of your life.
1 cigar = kill you slowly.

& many more of negative stories of this stuff. & how bout because of i'll remember u coz of 1 stick?

well, this incident happened to me yesterday while i'm on my way back to KL alone.
during the break, i'd my lunch & sat at the food court. Usually, after had my lunch, i smoked.
While i smoked, 1 uncle approached me,

Uncle: i want to buy a stick of your cigarettes & give me RM1.
Me: No, uncle, just take it.nevermind. (the thing is it really normal for me when someone pow your rokok while i'm doing da same thing when i'm i short of cigg)
Uncle: no,i insist to buy it.
Me: nevermind, just 1 cigg.u can have it. (he took it, & i lighted his cigg)

Me & this uncle had a conversation. we talked a lot. (the fact that we just met, & totally stranger kot.)

So, in the end this uncle said, "i'll remember u because of this 1 cigg."
Can i say that, we, the smokers actually the friendly & nice guy?
Yeah, kinda shocked cos i just met 1 stranger guy @ R&R coz of 1 cigg well, byk lagi sbnrnye kisah rokok yg cambest utk diceritakan.

No, i'm not promoting you to start smoke now.If i have choice, i'll quit, but well it might take a lil bit time for me to over it regarding to my environment, my life & i'm single(nah that's not the reason, but slowly i tell u deep inside i just want to get over this)

Erm..so another experience yet story from my life.hikhik

1 year of being pathetically single

hello there.

Since awhile i don't update this blog.yeah kinda lazy to write anything's here.huhuh.

well anyway, just like to tell that it's been a year now i wear the title "single".

satu post yang gua baca kat 9gag, macam btul.a guy will getting miserable once a few months after the break up.serius, memula gua rasa ok tapi lama tu baru sikit2 gua terkenang2 janji2 manis gua,janji manis dia.well i not whining here but these are the situation i've been thru now. prinsip idup gua, gua xsuka mungkir janji.even kalo gua dah janji, gua akan tunaikan walaupun benda tu lambat.kalo gua terlupa tu lain cerita.tapi bila gua dah janji, lu tunggu jek la.gua datang, gua bagi.ada jugak gua mungkir, tapi bukan selalu la.

berbalik kepada cite tadi, pas dah lama2 tu, bila teringat balik pasal2 janji2 gua, kekadang gua rasa bersalah jugak.mungkin ni jugak fasa kot.ahhh, serabut la pikir. gua akhiri entry arini dgn lagu:

p/s: fasa orang single memang cani ke????ermm...kesian kat diri sendiri jgk kekadang.

Hari mengeluh

things getting harder for me.

Workloads, problems etc.

pfft..

It reminds me how i use to tell all this to my late mom.Even though i can guess her answer, somehow its really comforting and make me calm. Almost all stuff i used to tell her.

Erm, since she passed away, well i used to keep all it inside. Some to my friends but somehow its not the same anyway.Kinda miss her now. Really miss her so much.

Sigh. Well live goes on.I should move on.Pity her if can't let her go right. Well, too late to say thanks to her but I'Allah i promise i will always pray for her there. Never ever get someone could replace her. Her voice, her last kiss, i can't always forget it. Hope it will be strengths for me to go through this. Relief.

I miss you Mak. Damn much.

Alfatihah.

Ku lihat dan ku ingat

aku rakam kau duduk,

berdiri,sujud, berjalan, berlari,merangkak.

aku rakam kau berteriak,

menangis, ketawa,bercakap, tersenyum,

aku rakam semuanya.

aku rakam kau menangis,

suka,hiba,risau, marah, geram.

sampai masa,

bila aku nak lihat semula,

aku lupa.

aku tiada projektor.

aku tiada kabel.

aku tiada layar putih.

jadi aku mainkan saja di sini,

di ruang imaginasi,

di dalam kotak hati,

sepanjang hari.

I'm in mess

Hello.Yeah its been 8 days we enter the year 2012.

All I can say last week,i messed up.it seems like my emotions controlled all over my body.

yeah I dunno wat to say but sometimes i think i am so desperate.

desperate to find the love one,find a girlfriend.

Man, seriously i hate this feeling.Its like controlling me from doing anythings right.

I hope it will end soon.

I wish i can be one heartless guy.At least for a moment so i can concentrate to what im suppose to do now.yeah.

And U, how come i always dreaming about u?I guess u are still there.Inside my broken-pieces of heart.Yeah i hope you do well there.I dont care if this entry will make me as a douchebag, but i have to admit that i always thinking of you without no reason.Sometimes make me wanna ask, are you going it the same?

There goes my whole week.

Alright peeps.I guess its Melati MODE.

toddles.

Cerpen Bohong #1 : awek Lif

Gua nampak die lagi.

kat Lif.

kali ni gua x satu lif dengan dia.die kat lif genap n gua kat lif ganjil.so gua tgk jek la die naik lif tu.

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Hari ini gua nmpk die.gua nak gi tingkat genap.so nampak die tunggu dalam lif.peluang ni.

Sampai dalam lif gua dah sengeh2 dah nampak awek ni.Untung ar.2 2 diam seribu bahasa.Ok gua dah sampai tingkat 16.gua keluar lif.dia still senyum kat gua.gua membalas senyuman die.kejap.pastu gua chow.

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Hari lain.Kali ni can gua 1 by 1.kebetulan dia dgn gua dalam lif ni.dua2 nak turun bawah.ermm...gua sengeh lagi kat die.again:2 2 diam seribu bahasa.

dah sampai tingkat 2 gua chow dari lif.gua tatau awek tu turun mana.

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Sialan.mana awek ni.dah xde dah.biar betik.peh gua rindu dowh.kenapa?????

Esoknya gua cari kat tingkat ganjil kot2 die nak pergi tingkat ganjil plak.pun xde.

*sigh*

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Satu hari gua tanya seorang brader kat lif, die tengah buat keje die,

"Bro, gua dah xnmpk lagi la iklan awek senyum dalam lif.mana eh?"

"La Bang, kitorang dah tukar iklan baru dah.kempen lain plak"

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sejak dari aritu, xkesah la gua naik lif ganjil ke genap, dah xde awek nak senyum kat gua.mase "iklan awek senyum" tu kat dalam lif, hari2 gua happy naik turun lif.ni dah tukar iklan gua terus banned lif tu kejap.gua naik turun tangga kecemasan.xkesah la.gua kan fit.

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macam tu la berakhir kesah gua dan awek lif.

Hasil nukilan,

#guaSementaraAlone

Recap 2011

Hello Ppl.today is 02.01.12.2 days after we entered this so-called-end-of-world year.Ermm.arini gua duk umah xbuat pape selain membuta.lantas malam ni gua mengambil keputusan utk menulis apa yg berlaku sepanjang 2011 yang lepas.mari gua review balik ape yg gua ingt.

earlier in this year, gua telah bertukar status dari seorg yg "in relationship" kepada seorang single.yeah so sad after 4years of relationship.I think God knows the best.ok gua malas nak ulas benda ni panjang2 sbb nnt gua sedeyh.

tahun lepas jugak merupakan setahun dah gua menceburi bidang pekerjaan.apa yang gua gain?banyak jugak la tapi gua admit yg gua main2 sikit.belum nak full commitment.i guess tahun ni gua nak keep focus on career gua and belajar lagi banyak benda baru.dalam pening2 keje pon, ada 3 events besar jugak yg gua involved.LID 2011, Monsoon Cup & LIMA 2011.its such a good experiences to involved with these events especially LIMA 2011.good exposure for me to compete in these working world.tetibe rase progresif plak. Ok sad side plak, assistant gua, Mr Hoo, telah meninggal dunia masa gua kat event Monsoon Cup.So sad la sebab sepanjang gua keje, banyak pengalaman, ilmu gua dgn sifu ni.beliau byk bagi nasihat2 kat gua n hopefully gua dpt adapt dalam pekerjaan gua.Pastu tahun lepas jugak tahun gua belajar buat tender.baru gua tau rumit siak.sumpah hectic macam gua buat fyp dulu.fuh seb bek dah hantar dah.

besides dat ape lagi, oh ape benda2 duniawi yg gua aim gua dapat la.kirenye wishlist2 gua termakbul la.paling osem, nak2 tutup taun gua dpt barang yg paling gua hajati.gembira jugak.

Tahun lepas jugak gua menerima famili baru n anak buah baru.so making my family bigger.anak buah baru gua, muiz ni, comel gile.cume die baru 2 bln.gua xsempat nak gigit2 lagi.salunye baby2 gua memang gigit kalo die comel.tapi si muiz ni gua belum sampai ati nak gigit2 die mcm si eamil dulu.haha.ye itu memang habit gua dgn baby.gua ske gigit die.tapi sepupu/relatives sendri la.baby org gile ke nak men gigit2?owh xlupe jgk tmbh 2 lagi relatives baru, rayyan sama amani.hehe.

tahun menyaksikan kawan2 gua berumahtangga, bertunang dan beranak pinak.ok tahun lepas gua saksikan la seme2 bende ni.ok ni pon malas nk ulas pasal nnt gua terasa macam #foreveralone.

ermm gua harap taun ni lagi happy n lagi cemerlang lagi best dari tahun lepas.n gua harap taun ni gua lebih matang dalam membuat keputusan.All da best people for this year.I'Allah