2014: Tahun penuh cabaran, kegembiraan, kedukaan, keperitan

Salam.

Dah setahun lebih rupanya aku tak menulis. So, hari ni nak tahun baru ni, try buka blog ni.

Ingat dah tak de dah. Luckily masih wujud.

Sebab dah lama aku tak menulis, so skill dan strok aku dah kaku dah.

2014.

Tahun ni memang penuh cabaran kat aku.

Macam mana berperang dengan diri sendiri, dengan kerja dan persekitaran.

Hahaha. tough year i can say.

Oh dan tahun ni jugak, sebenarnya aku dan tukar status dari lelaki bujang kepada laki orang.

dan kalau nak tau sape bini aku, tu ha, entry kat bawah tu.

Pn Roziyusmazdianti tu la bini gua skang. jeng jeng jeng.seb bek kawen dengan die. kalo tak aku delete dah post sebelum ni. kahkahkah.

Alhamdulillah juga untuk rezeki-rezeki tahun ni. 

So, aku harap 2015 ni akan ada perubahan selain perubahan badan aku yang makin mengembang ni.

So aku tutup blog dengan belanja gamba diri sendiri:

1) Gambar nikah awal tahun ni : 31/1/14

2) Gamba hujung tahun 2014: 25/12/14 (isteri gua tak kembang. gua yang makin kembang )

Selamat tahun baru korang.

Peace & salam.

Roziyusmazdianti Ibrahim Birthday

Hi hello,

Today is her birthday.Surprisingly, i still don't wish her yet. (yeah notty boy, i know). So this is the proof that i remember today is her birthday. Yeah, God knows how eager i wanna wish her today. But, i think i wanna be da last person to wish her today.Well, wish me luck.

I can see she is a bit emoish (i guess) since i don't wish her till now.Kat line type sepatah2.hikhik. Well, this post is a live proof to show her just in case she don't believe. Yeah, i write here coz i know she won't check my blog. So, its just safe to write in here.Huhu.

Last year, i got to hear her "suara bangun tido" coz i'm d first 1 to wish her. So why don't be da last one this year pulak kan? Yeah, its a bit risky to play this game on her birthday today. but, i hope everything's gonna be fine.

So, shout out to my girl:

"HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY ROZIYUSMAZDIANTI IBRAHIM.
MAY ALLAH BLESS U IN WHATEVER U DO .
KEEP CALM & STAY LOVE US".

Can't wait to see you if you come to KL this week.

P/s: i know i'm not a romantic boyfriend right? jangan marah ar..ingt senang ke nak tahan nafsu nak wish lambat2 ni.

J.

hello there Tinta Ganjil

Well, its so sudden when i finally remember that i used to tell & share my story here. 

Terbiar dah blog ni.lama siak.

Well i guess lets just not abandon this blog anymore.perhaps?

Well too much media, too many social networks but i think, nothing beats the classic,blog.

Tetiba rasa nak menulis balik sebab i think lots of things in my head right now. Well i hope what i share will not make the controversial entry, offended & many more. At least i try to be honest here. Shall we?

1) aku rase aku ada masalah. too many negative vibes now in myself:

1) lazy

2) procrastinator

3) demotivated

4) passive

5) rebel

6) take things for granted

2) Aku teringin sangat nak tukar tempat kerja & kerja baru. Tapi kat tempat kerja lama, aku ada banyak pending work xsiap (due too highly demotivated &procrastinating attitude), office political, arghh.aku rase macam dead end. For the salary i get now, aku rase bersyukur but on the part, aku seriously xenjoy ape aku buat. i didnt do it happily. Aku penah apply nak tukar department, but somehow kena reject n everything has to go through boss. Well, aku mcm xpuas ati since it is my career path. not giving me any opportunity to go to that interview first.mmg aku agak bengang, tapi entah, nak argue pon mcm membazir air liur.baik buat bodo n try to settle my current & pending workloads yg aku xde semangat nak siapkan.

3) Arghh terlalu banyak benda yang aku nak buat, tapi aku rasa aku ni malas nak mampos.kekadang aku ni bengang jgk dgn diri sendiri, tapi entah 1 side of myself macam tak kesah langsung,haihhh....

AKu seriusly tatau apa nak buat.if ada nasihat aku amat la berterima kasih. cuma aku selalu bertanya,

"sampai bila?"

Kamu

Kamu,

kamu la.

yang kat sana,

yang comel, rupawan lagi menawan.

ya, kamulah siapa lagi.

tak percaya pula,

sudah, jangan kamu bertapi-tapi lagi.

kamulah orang itu.

tidak disangkal lagi.

kamu tahu siapa kamu bukan?

kamulah orang itu.

Untuk "kamu"

-r.i-

1 stick of cigar

Well a lot of story i heard bout this stick.
They said 1 cigar = -1 day of your life.
1 cigar = kill you slowly.

& many more of negative stories of this stuff. & how bout because of i'll remember u coz of 1 stick?

well, this incident happened to me yesterday while i'm on my way back to KL alone.
during the break, i'd my lunch & sat at the food court. Usually, after had my lunch, i smoked.
While i smoked, 1 uncle approached me,

Uncle: i want to buy a stick of your cigarettes & give me RM1.
Me: No, uncle, just take it.nevermind. (the thing is it really normal for me when someone pow your rokok while i'm doing da same thing when i'm i short of cigg)
Uncle: no,i insist to buy it.
Me: nevermind, just 1 cigg.u can have it. (he took it, & i lighted his cigg)

Me & this uncle had a conversation. we talked a lot. (the fact that we just met, & totally stranger kot.)

So, in the end this uncle said, "i'll remember u because of this 1 cigg."
Can i say that, we, the smokers actually the friendly & nice guy?
Yeah, kinda shocked cos i just met 1 stranger guy @ R&R coz of 1 cigg well, byk lagi sbnrnye kisah rokok yg cambest utk diceritakan.

No, i'm not promoting you to start smoke now.If i have choice, i'll quit, but well it might take a lil bit time for me to over it regarding to my environment, my life & i'm single(nah that's not the reason, but slowly i tell u deep inside i just want to get over this)

Erm..so another experience yet story from my life.hikhik

1 year of being pathetically single

hello there.

Since awhile i don't update this blog.yeah kinda lazy to write anything's here.huhuh.

well anyway, just like to tell that it's been a year now i wear the title "single".

satu post yang gua baca kat 9gag, macam btul.a guy will getting miserable once a few months after the break up.serius, memula gua rasa ok tapi lama tu baru sikit2 gua terkenang2 janji2 manis gua,janji manis dia.well i not whining here but these are the situation i've been thru now. prinsip idup gua, gua xsuka mungkir janji.even kalo gua dah janji, gua akan tunaikan walaupun benda tu lambat.kalo gua terlupa tu lain cerita.tapi bila gua dah janji, lu tunggu jek la.gua datang, gua bagi.ada jugak gua mungkir, tapi bukan selalu la.

berbalik kepada cite tadi, pas dah lama2 tu, bila teringat balik pasal2 janji2 gua, kekadang gua rasa bersalah jugak.mungkin ni jugak fasa kot.ahhh, serabut la pikir. gua akhiri entry arini dgn lagu:

p/s: fasa orang single memang cani ke????ermm...kesian kat diri sendiri jgk kekadang.

Hari mengeluh

things getting harder for me.

Workloads, problems etc.

pfft..

It reminds me how i use to tell all this to my late mom.Even though i can guess her answer, somehow its really comforting and make me calm. Almost all stuff i used to tell her.

Erm, since she passed away, well i used to keep all it inside. Some to my friends but somehow its not the same anyway.Kinda miss her now. Really miss her so much.

Sigh. Well live goes on.I should move on.Pity her if can't let her go right. Well, too late to say thanks to her but I'Allah i promise i will always pray for her there. Never ever get someone could replace her. Her voice, her last kiss, i can't always forget it. Hope it will be strengths for me to go through this. Relief.

I miss you Mak. Damn much.

Alfatihah.

Ku lihat dan ku ingat

aku rakam kau duduk,

berdiri,sujud, berjalan, berlari,merangkak.

aku rakam kau berteriak,

menangis, ketawa,bercakap, tersenyum,

aku rakam semuanya.

aku rakam kau menangis,

suka,hiba,risau, marah, geram.

sampai masa,

bila aku nak lihat semula,

aku lupa.

aku tiada projektor.

aku tiada kabel.

aku tiada layar putih.

jadi aku mainkan saja di sini,

di ruang imaginasi,

di dalam kotak hati,

sepanjang hari.

I'm in mess

Hello.Yeah its been 8 days we enter the year 2012.

All I can say last week,i messed up.it seems like my emotions controlled all over my body.

yeah I dunno wat to say but sometimes i think i am so desperate.

desperate to find the love one,find a girlfriend.

Man, seriously i hate this feeling.Its like controlling me from doing anythings right.

I hope it will end soon.

I wish i can be one heartless guy.At least for a moment so i can concentrate to what im suppose to do now.yeah.

And U, how come i always dreaming about u?I guess u are still there.Inside my broken-pieces of heart.Yeah i hope you do well there.I dont care if this entry will make me as a douchebag, but i have to admit that i always thinking of you without no reason.Sometimes make me wanna ask, are you going it the same?

There goes my whole week.

Alright peeps.I guess its Melati MODE.

toddles.

Cerpen Bohong #1 : awek Lif

Gua nampak die lagi.

kat Lif.

kali ni gua x satu lif dengan dia.die kat lif genap n gua kat lif ganjil.so gua tgk jek la die naik lif tu.

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Hari ini gua nmpk die.gua nak gi tingkat genap.so nampak die tunggu dalam lif.peluang ni.

Sampai dalam lif gua dah sengeh2 dah nampak awek ni.Untung ar.2 2 diam seribu bahasa.Ok gua dah sampai tingkat 16.gua keluar lif.dia still senyum kat gua.gua membalas senyuman die.kejap.pastu gua chow.

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Hari lain.Kali ni can gua 1 by 1.kebetulan dia dgn gua dalam lif ni.dua2 nak turun bawah.ermm...gua sengeh lagi kat die.again:2 2 diam seribu bahasa.

dah sampai tingkat 2 gua chow dari lif.gua tatau awek tu turun mana.

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Sialan.mana awek ni.dah xde dah.biar betik.peh gua rindu dowh.kenapa?????

Esoknya gua cari kat tingkat ganjil kot2 die nak pergi tingkat ganjil plak.pun xde.

*sigh*

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Satu hari gua tanya seorang brader kat lif, die tengah buat keje die,

"Bro, gua dah xnmpk lagi la iklan awek senyum dalam lif.mana eh?"

"La Bang, kitorang dah tukar iklan baru dah.kempen lain plak"

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sejak dari aritu, xkesah la gua naik lif ganjil ke genap, dah xde awek nak senyum kat gua.mase "iklan awek senyum" tu kat dalam lif, hari2 gua happy naik turun lif.ni dah tukar iklan gua terus banned lif tu kejap.gua naik turun tangga kecemasan.xkesah la.gua kan fit.

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macam tu la berakhir kesah gua dan awek lif.

Hasil nukilan,

#guaSementaraAlone